The beginning of my own search for meaning

What brings me here? - A big powerful DREAM of mine. It's called LIFE.

I am learning so many amazing things about myself, life and the universe on a daily basis! What a blessing! I'm writing all of these adventures down for myself to remember and for you. I  feel called to share my story so that it may light you up and inspire you to become true to yourself. 

I trust that you are here because you, like me, love learning how others have turned their lives around into sunny, happy, feel-good lives that fit them perfectly. If that's not something to rock your boat, no hard feelings, but you may as well get out now. ;-)

A little question for starters: 

Have you  ever wondered whether there is more to life than just "going to work every day and paying the bills". For the longest time, that was me. I was going through the motions of what society calls "life", and what I have realized over time is just "surviving" -- and barely. All the while I was scratching my head over the question "now, this is it, or what?!"

The funny thing about our daily brunt is that we keep running in loops and circles, always driven by rules and requirements outside of ourselves. 

Unless we start asking questions and opening up. Then life turns on its head and any old R-E-A-C-T-I-O-N turns into a beautiful C-R-E-A-T-I-O-N. It still blows my mind how moving the "C" from the fourth letter to the first brings so much empowerment! 

This brings to mind a wonderful little verse my firstgrade teacher wrote into my book of friends: 

"Life is not a highway between your birth and your death. It is your parking spot in the sun." 

Tiny seven-year-old that I was back then, I thought that was just a cute thing to write; in retrospect, I know I did not understand what she meant to tell me. Today, about 25 years later, her words ring so true, it is amazing. Thank you, Rita Kohl!

When I started to get serious about asking questions about my life, the first thing that happened was that I got increasingly frustrated with myself, or rather with the life I had led until then. Mind you, my life was very much what Western society would call a "success". 

A little bit of background info on myself: I have three university degrees from three different countries, I am well traveled, have one of the most exciting (office) jobs I can think of, and a well-paying one at that, with the option to turn myself into a real career woman. I'm in a loving relationship, and have been for more than six years now. When I consciously started this journey in 2008, I was "enjoying" life by consuming ever more (clothes, shoes, travel, books, TV, food, wine), paying my bills, getting the right kinds of insurance policies, saving for retirement etc.. What more could I possibly want? - A lot, as it turns out. And most importantly: FREEDOM!

Haha, I just made myself laugh reading that last paragraph: pay attention to the very Western sequence of accomplishments, starting with my qualifications. :-) While those are all nice to have and surely helpful for certain life paths, I've learnt that there is only one qualification in life that really counts. Being yourself. Yes, you read me right. No special accomplishments needed. Just having been born and being on this planet is all you need. 

Now, back to my story about actively changing my life: the really cool part is, I get to keep whatever I feel worth keeping from my old life, spice it up and add new twists to my life for a complete transformation, as I mentally leave the "highway of life" (read drudgery, dragging my feet, not wanting to get up some mornings) and get comfy in my "parking spot in the sun". So not to worry: nothing is wasted. Ever. I know from the bottom of my heart that every single experience I made was necessary for me to get to where I am at now. There is no wasted time and no wasted money. No regrets. Just growth and the process of becoming aware of it all. It all comes together beautifully!

One of the many revelations I've had along the way - probably the most important one - is 

Life is the only fair game out there - we all get what we ask for in the end.

The only trick is to become aware of it and to stop sabotaging ourselves. But more on that later. I, for one, needed to learn to stand on my head before I understood just how much we see things upside down in our Western way of life - literally! Whether that's for you or not, is up to you to decide. Maybe you won't have to learn how to do headstands to transform your life and perspective, so please keep reading. ;-)

I'm delighted to share my journey of ever more awareness and healing with you!

Please check back often for new content, as both this blog and eMateria unravel.

Love, light and healing,

Solveig