Wow, what a whirlwind year this has been. Rollercoaster is a fitting expression, too. Until one hour ago, the jury was still out how this year would end for me, and now it’s official: I’m in a happy place for the last few hours of 2012.
Not that it really was a close call - I feel blessed to have been given every single moment of 2012! Some I mastered gracefully, others not so much.
Here are a few of the life-changing events from my 2012:
All in all, I have to say, I’m impressed! This is so much more than I ever dreamed of a year ago! I learned loads in the school of life this past year. Woohoo!
Earlier this afternoon, though, I caught my inner dialog - I was beating myself up for all the not so graceful stuff that transpired in the past year.
Luckily, a dear friend of mine inspired me to don my running gear and get my butt out of the apartment. You know who you are, dear life-saver, thank you!!!
On the way to the forest, I was still in the dumps emotionally. I would run for a bit, then drop into a slow trot or even walk. That’s when my thoughts were at their worst: “how could I ...?” “why didn’t I ...?” “what will X think of me now?” - I’m sure you’re familiar with that kind of mental conversation. I almost turned back before reaching the forest. And I desperately wanted a place to hide so that I could cry.
I’m glad I know myself well enough by now to notice that this kind of afternoon is precisely the time when I most need a few minutes alone in the forest, be it running, walking or just sitting still. So, somehow, I made it into the forest.
When I reached the trees by twilight, rising against the sky naked and dark, I finally started breathing more deeply. The scenery reminded me very much that winter time, though cold, removed and often characterized by a scarcity of sunlight in these parts of the world, is very much part of the master plan. It’s part of the magic to have a time to sit and go within. Or to go outside and notice that nature herself is taking a breath, going inside, and gathering strength before she bursts out in all her splendor in a new spring.
There’s so much hope, so much promise! And nature doesn’t beat herself up a bit because she’s devoid of the pretty flowers and luscious greens for a few months each year. So, why do we?
Let’s return to that state of immense gratitude and deep knowing that we are in the right place at the right time. Because we are. This moment is the only one that counts.
Please take a moment to reflect on the following:
What are you grateful for?
Where are you at?
I invite to share in the comments section below if you feel called.
And now I am going to say bye bye and thank you 2012! And welcome 2013 with all new adventures! I look forward to connecting with all of you again in the new year!
Love and light,
Solveig Caroline originally studied and practiced energetic healing modalities to "job-proof" her body and mind, when she found herself in a full-blown burnout while working on Wall Street. Her passionate curiosity about natural/spiritual healing and intense desire to share the treasure trove of insights & lessen the burden on other highly ambitious and madly busy souls had her establish eMateria in 2012.
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